Lately I've been missing home so much. I miss my friends, hanging out in the mall, school, my brothers and sisters and just everyday life. There is so much diversity in our country that everyday is an adventure. I was never bored back home (unlike here). Yet, here I can see the blue sky and the green hills everyday. I can breathe all the fresh air I like and I don't spend half my day stuck in traffic. That is a wonder in itself, especially when you've grown up to the polluted and unsafe streets of Metro Manila. But there is only so much beautiful sunrises and sunsets that can keep me occupied. (A friend of mine who just went home a couple of week ago. One of her first messages to me was that she was dying in the polluted and traffic streets of Manila. I have to admit, I'm not really looking forward to that as well.)
However, another part of me is saying that things back home are not the same anymore. I haven't been home in 3 years (it would be 4 when i get my holiday next year) and a lot of things have changed. Life does go on for everyone, even when someone goes away. Logically, my life would be better if I stayed here and nothing can dispute that. Practically, what I'm earning here now on a weekly basis would probably be my salary in Manila for a month (i'm only on a casual salary as well and not full-time)! Life in Australia is really simpler and easier. But as my friends can say, I was never one to choose the simple and easy way (except when it comes to passing exams! :)).
Well, I still have a few more weeks or months to go to find out what the future holds for me. For now, I'm just thinking that all the options are open for me at the moment and that I really have a say in what's going to happen (this situation can change soon). Missing home is really just normal I guess. But no matter what happens there is one thing i hold on to: it is the belief that my friends will still be my friends no matter how long I stay here and that nothing would change that. For me that is what keeps me going everyday and I'm really thankful for that!
2 comments:
Grabeh!!!! Miss ko na Manila!!!!!:( Sana nga makauwi na tayo.... If only we weren't practical people.
Ooopppssss....Cai, I followed my heart. I decided to go home.... No need to prove anything to anyone anyway. The fact that I am alive today is a testament that we choose our destiny and not the other way around.
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